I think I must finally admit this to myself.  I am in a Quandary.  As an artist, as a blogger as a person.  You may have noticed this inadvertently around here on decloned.  Everything from Contemplating Pet Photography to getting back into my painting and blogging.  I realized this on a small scale back when I brought more of my focus back to decloned after writing with b5media over the last year. 

I’ve been writing so much over the last year about art, blogging and some form of the two combined that it almost makes it impossible to look at the world the same way as before.  It’s hard to do anything without thinking about how to incorporate it into a post of some sort.  In short, I think I am a bit burnt out on the art scene and writing about it.  I’ve forgotten a lot about the enjoyment of painting because it seems to be a stepping stone to something else. 

I did get some good news though. 

Things are at least initially looking up with finances at the church based on some initial feedback that we’ve received.  Finances have been hard for so long that it’s hard to be hopeful, but I am.  I think I will take a step on faith and begin a new small group Bible Study as well and hope that the good news is true and plays out that way in the long run.  Either way, what I want most is to be where God wants me and to focus on Him.

Here’s a verse that I read recently and I think it applies to where I am right now:

O our God, will you not judge them? For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you.“

2 Chronicles 20:12